I’m not big on new year’s resolutions. I’ve tried to make them in the past because in theory I like the idea of it. I just have a hard time sticking to things like “read more” and “eat healthier.” It’s too vague and habit building doesn’t happen overnight.
I do want to share a few things that are on my to-do list for next year though. The reason I’m calling it a “to-do list” and not resolutions is because these are definitive things that I have plans to accomplish and that are necessary. They’re things that I have to do because I’ve hit a point in my life where there is no other option. In order for me to be okay mentally and to grow and change in any way, these things need to get done.
So here they are:
- Go to therapy. I am already working on getting this in place and I’m feeling optimistic. I’ve needed therapy for a long time; most of my life if I’m being completely honest.
- Get my permit. Get my license. I’m stuck without being able to drive. I feel limited in what I can do and I feel like I’m suffocating because of it. I have a lot of anxiety around driving. Hopefully the therapy can help this a little.
- Get a tattoo. This is important because it requires me to save money for something that I really want and in the meantime, forgo spending that money on trivial things. That’s important to me and something I need to work on. And I just really want more tattoos.
That’s it. Those are the things that I know I need and want to get done in 2020. There are, of course, plenty of other things I want to do. I want to read more books, do more yoga, write a bunch of stuff, get a new job, go on more adventures. It’s the same kind of stuff that I always want but it’s stuff that has to come through habit building and through the flow of my life.
I have a lot of foundational issues: depression, anxiety, low self esteem. There is a reason therapy is at the top of the list. These are the things that need to be addressed first and hopefully through that process, the rest will come.